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This Absurd and Wondrous Life
An irreverent literary journey through the existential angst and soul-crushing beauty of being a mother, embracing neurodivergence, and getting older.
If you are trying reconcile who you once were with who you are becoming, if you are trying to find an outlet for creative energy, or just a spark of passion in the mundane work of adulthood, if you ache for connection and meaning, YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
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Recent Posts
- A Mother’s Calculus of PainHaving babies is fucking hard on the body. Don’t get me wrong, I really enjoyed pregnancy, for the most part. And birth is pretty amazing too. But my back has never been the same since I herniated a disc pushing… Read more: A Mother’s Calculus of Pain
- Showing upToday, I am showing up to do the thing. The thing I don’t want to do. The thing I am an expert at finding excuses to not do. Because it’s hard. Because I deeply understand that I do want to… Read more: Showing up
- Handfuls of HopeDiscovering slow and steady progress amidst the chaotic urgency of parenting The beackseat of my car is a burial ground for broken toys, errant lego bits, crusty hats, food wrappers, mouldy crumbs of long forgotten, half-gnawed muesli bars, the lonely,… Read more: Handfuls of Hope
- Sure, ND kids need boundaries, but not the way you mean it.Woe to the next person who tells me my ND kids just need boundaries. A pox on their house! Surely a pox would be more gentle than the serrated edge of my wrath. Being told “Kids need boundaries” gives me… Read more: Sure, ND kids need boundaries, but not the way you mean it.
- For My LilyMy smart watch is smarter than I am. Sometimes it reminds me to breathe.It counts each breath for me:Inhale 2… 3… 4… 5…Exhale 2… 3… 4… 5… It has all these functionsthat allow me to calculate my well-being. The pedometer… Read more: For My Lily
So, how are you feeling?
When we consider the absurdity of life, we let go of the search for meaning and find we can laugh through the pain. Connection with other humans and the experience of shared emotion is what makes life worthwhile.
The world is a complex system of infinite potential, and through science, we have only begun to unlock its mysteries. As a sentient species, we are uniquely able to contemplate the immense forces of the universe and the minute majesty of our own DNA.
Disclaimer: I am not an expert in anything. As such, any opinions and ideas offered on this page are not intended to replace medical advice, factual research from relevant, credible sources, or your own common sense.